Stabbed, right smack at the heart

Greetings world,

I thought I wouldn't cry, I thought I've become strong, I thought I'm alright...

I shouldn't have gone to cityhall before tuition; within say 5mins, I thought you were a stranger to me, not a complete one but one which I knew since primary school. What an irony, say readers of my post.

IDK what's going on, IDK how your mind works, IDK anything.
I just feel painful all the time, not physically but yeah, you get it.

It's really awful; have you ever felt so alone and can like cry all the way back from Bugis? IDK. I tried very very hard to fight back my tears but to no avail :'(((((((((((((((

I didn't dare go home because my nose was red and my eyes swollen :'((((
Didn't dare, because I know Daddy will ask and probe :'(
Mummy texted and called because she was worried.
Guess what? I lied to her that I was on the way back when I was actually downstairs.
I think my parents' hearts are aching right now, probably just as bad as mine :(

I ought to let go, but I don't have the courage to, I can't bear to and I know I'm so gonna regret if I do. Maybe you'll delete this post? IDK IDK IDK. I know nothing right now.

Nothingness. All I feel is misery and pain. Excruciating pain :'(((((((((((((((



"Continue Crying", said you.