Politically Right Musings

Politics is complex and mostly dirty. With the upcoming General Elections nearing, it is hardly surprising that our FaceBook feeds are flooded with updates from this party and that party. And a whole lot of fluff and barf about glorifying Singapore's past successes, thrashing and making sarcastic remarks redundantly. Shouldn't everyone be more concerned about what's going to happen in the future instead of rambling about the past?

Truth be told, I've always been apolitical. I've always been the one who avoided essays on politics at all cost back in school. The fact that I'm even musing about Singapore's politics now says something, really.

Nobody says it's easy to run a country and even though we cannot deny that we have loads more than we used to, the negative effects of certain policies have started to peek through and haunt us normal peasants. Things like rising costs, depressed wages, stolen jobs, the gaping hole in income gap, faltering public infrastructure, shitty interest rates and the ridiculous minimum sum associated with CPF... the list just goes on and on?

I don't know about you but the more I read and discover, the more disgusted I feel about this whole thing. What's the point of constantly emphasising on democracy when the way the ruling party deals with opposition can be so demeaning and lacklustre? It certainly doesn't help when these incredibly well paid beings are seemingly very out of touch with the lives of the average Singaporeans.

I am for the idea that our Parliament should be more diverse with a strong, united opposition team. Opposition exists to ensure that genuine scrutiny prevails when circumstances call for it, that voices of the oppressed can be heard, that meaningful debates about bills and policies concerning the country and her citizens are carried out etc etc.

That said, I know very well which party ain't getting my one measly vote for sure, 100& guarantee + chop + double confirm.


X,
Denise

Sine-Cosine, Sorta.

I've resolved to update this space more regularly even though nobody might visit. It's still my space, so I'll write whenever the feel for it comes by.

Just a quick heads up, I think I messed up big time at SPH's interview session last Friday. I'd be lying if I say I didn't feel a wee bit defeated even before I made my way there. It was my fourth trip there and I couldn't help it, really.

What makes me think that the print side would want me when I don't even have any experience in print? After all, the digital side didn't pick me even when I've got some solid articles to show. Rational and logical calculations aside, it's no wonder that I felt crappy even before the interview ended. And I'm pretty sure the interviewers felt those defeated vibe wafting out of me profusely. I wouldn't blame them for being confused for the (kinda) desperate me even threw out a crazy suggestion on the interview floor.

Ugh. Why is it so difficult to be a beauty writer? :(

Truth be told, I hate interviews.
Interviews suck.
They almost always make me feel like dump.

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On a brighter note, I'm still alive and still looking around for opportunities in the most unlikely of places. The thought of just signing on with the armed forces popped up in my head, in case you're wondering. They pay pretty well, too! But I don't suppose I'm at that stage where I'm ready to give up my freedom, pretty clothes and pink IC to battle bugs, lizards and whatever other unfriendly creatures that are out there in the wild yet.

Anyhow, I felt strangely excited when I finally took a leap of faith and applied to be a teacher. I've never considered teaching as a career path that I'd embark on so I really really don't know where that excitement stemmed from! It sounds nice if I can impact on others' lives positively though. Ah, that Aquarius trait in me.

Alright, I'm getting out of here! Gonna grab dinner with daddy soon and exercise. Will try to sleep early tonight since I gotta be up crazy early tomorrow. DXO's psychometric test starts too early?


Love,
Denise

Denise is back.

Hello,

This came as much as a surprise for me as it is for you. I never thought I'd be writing in this space again having left it in the lurch for such a long, long time. Well, 5 years is a pretty long hiatus, no?

What's going on in my life? Nothing much except the fact that I finally found my calling one year after leaving NUS.

I don't want to just write. Writing things that I love gives me a sense of gratification like no other. It is, of course, a bonus if my written works help any single soul out there in any way possible.

I've learnt so much about the power of words - how words can shape one's opinion so easily, how putting words out of context can create the kind of hurt or pain unknowingly, how some words can be comforting while others can tear you apart. Words are never just words.

To be able to pursue something that I've loved since I was a kid is an incredibly rewarding privilege. And I'm trying to be as hopeful as I can be right now. It may not command the kind of salary that high flyers in other niche industries are getting, nor the kind of respect that doctors and lawyers get, but still, it is an honest profession in its own right. Apologies if I sound defensive and all. I just feel... defeated.

The struggle is real. I am only armed with a portfolio consisting of journalistic works I've done for The Smart Local, some fashion-based content I'd created at my previous workplace, and a handful of freelance articles.

It hurts to know that I was so so so so so close to getting my dream job but they picked somebody else because that person has experience in both print and digital. Now, how am I suppose to gain more experience in digital and/or start gaining experience in print when publishing companies wouldn't give me the opportunity to?

What else can I do?

• Slog over underpaid freelance digital articles? Am doing it now though the monetary reward is close to non-existence. 
•  Do an internship again? I'd love to but who's gonna pay my bills and ridiculous shopping tabs? Nobody. 
• Start a professional blog and write about the things I fancy as suggested by a friend of mine? Hmmm, I could consider it I suppose? 

Anyhow, in case you're wondering, nope, I didn't drop out of school. I graduated with a Bachelor of Arts and I majored in Economics. I'm genuinely curious how my life will unravel from now on. I really am.

p.s. Denise feels very blessed and thankful to have family and close friends care for and love her the way she is. :')


Love,
Denise

Peekaboo!

Hello world!
It's been a really really long time since I last updated, so yea, here I am! :D
Haha, okay, the past few months have been mad, like, really really mad.

Term2: Band+concert+crazy practices, lots of tutorials and sch stuff

June Holidays: Practically not a holiday at all T.T (so far, it's the worst 'vacation')

Term3: MYE, a million pieces of assignments+tests, consultations for some subjs, first time that I've ever done so much econ :X, deprived of tv+going out to play+freedom, started studying for prelim (p.s it was kinda shitty, as in the process of sitting down and studying)

Sept Holidays: Study for prelims, shopped online

Term4: Sat for prelims, spent a bomb shopping online :X I bought all sorts of stuff but mostly clothes, bought prelim papers from photocopy shop and chionged, studied for A's, Sat for A's (Psst, one more paper to go for now)

A level period: Demoralised because papers weren't exactly alright as many had expected; lots of surprises eg. where the heck was databased in phy p2? why was chem so darn diff besides p1? These are just a few of them :X and yeah, I'm uncertain if I'll have somewhere to go after A's (as in University) :(((((
I need a back-up plan, just in case things aren't working out well :XXXXX omgxzxz this sucks big time, like seriously.

Had econ essays yesterday, IDK if I did okay but yeah, decided to put it aside and just not care for awhile :X Hah, went to xinyi's house for awhile before going to ah mah's place while my friends went TM to catch HP :) went to T1 w mummy and walked around, bought a little stuff, didn't really see christmas stuff :/ Man, I like christmas the best alr. Started creating my gift list last night, haha it was so fun! :) I'm not done w it though. hee. oh oh, saw young elaine and sam sim :)) whee! ahah, yes I'm so gonna watch all the shows and movies that I've been wanting to watch! heh.

Yeah, I'm going out today, no studying, no doing of any work. Hee :) IDK what to wear as usual. tsk. oh, guess what's the time now? 0918. omgxzxzx and I went to sleep at 3am this morning. Was watching travel&living. Heh. omgxzxz. ah, I can't seem to sleep very long already D:

Okay, I'm gonna go transfer songs into mp3 and stuff alr. Just downloaded the list of songs shared by Gabriel :) Thanks Gabriel! :D yes, I'm gonna date my friends out etc etc, I'm going Taiwan and HK in dec w Tricia, ah mah and aunt, I wanna go overseas w daddy,mummy and bro, I wanna learn lots of stuff, I wanna get a cool job that pays reasonably (P.s no more f&b!!!) I wanna read all the books I've been wanting to read etc etc. Omg, the list ain't ending. haha! :P omgxzxz I can't remember the password and user name to my tagboard :( can't remove all the spams T.T ahhh!

Alrighty, till then! :)

Gift of a friend

Greetings, world.


OhMyMama!

Was stopping by at Kellynn's blog when I realised how sucky life would be without besties and friends.

It seems that I've been burying myself under piles and piles of notes and school-related stuff that I haven't really stopped, or paused, to think about my besties and friends. Man, so so so guilty.

Amidst all these, I'd just like besties and friends to know that I love you guys, I really really do..

Anyway, three more days till the end of MBT. I'm looking forward to the end of it, like seriously, even though I know MBT's out to kill the majority. Will start promoting MJCSB's concert soon too :X Buh-bye~



Love,
Denise

I'm Back!

Greetings world,

Hello! This is the first time I'm blogging as an eighteen-year-old (think matured :X) person. HAHAHAHA. Man, no wonder I'm always the joke. LOL :P tsk, how can anyone not be smiling when I'm crapping :P Heeheehee! Ahaha, me had an awesome awesome super duper awesome birthday party on my birthday slightly one month back :) Yay! <3 Really appreciated it. hee.

As usual, school's been draining! Totally exhausting. I need sleep man! :P Like seriously. The MBT seems really outta reach for me. Dang, hate it so much! As in, academics, in general :P Hai, it's so darn darn darn difficult to cope :( Boohoo! The amount of work just keeps piling up like a giantic snowball. A little crack will lead to a bigger fault line, and eventually, everything's gonna crumble and crash. Gayshit ttm man! :X

One word: Awful

Another word: Stressful, to the max

Another one perhaps: Dying :X

On a brighter note,time spent with awesome people in school's been fun and enjoyable luh! :) <3 heehee :X man, am I random or what? What! haha! :P Okiedokie, I'm not supposed to be here you know! You know you know? :) I oughtta be studying and mugging away my life, like seriously. I don't even have anything planned out yet! :X :( Boohoo! Bye, back to the notes!

Buh-bye~!

Uncertain

Greetings world,

This is the first post for the year of 2010. Ain't gonna blog a lot though I'd love to. But yeah, I think I won't be blogging very much this year (not say I'd blogged a lot in the previous year :X)

IDK how the year's gonna be like; this is just the beginning but yeah, somehow, I'm feeling super duper tired already. IDK if it'll keep me going, keep me hanging :( Boohoo, dang, I'm so scared for this year. Hais.

Alrighty, shall end on a not-so-pleasant note today. Bye Bye people!

Denise shall retreat for now.
Denise still has the towel in her hands (not literally) and she doesn't doesn't doesn't wanna throw it in, ever.........

My 2009

Greetings world,

Healowww~ Denise has finally decided to save her dying blog and yeap, she's decided to post something meaningful to mark the end of 2009 as it's drawing to an end. Firstly, Denise would like to thank everyone who's been with her all these while; Daddy, Mummy, Bro, Ruyan, Jonglian, Grace, Jorene, Kellynn, Jayhan, Dionne,Jian Jun, Elaine, Nicholas, Arian, Shi Ying, Lee Guan, Cherilyn, Xin Yi, Mabel, Gabriel, Cassandra, Shawn, Joanne, Athena, Grace Gan, Richny, Kor, Theodora, Isabelle, Priscilla, Yi (eeeeee) Xiong, Deborah, Gary, Lester, CharmaineLim, Vanessa, Kevin, Wan Ling, Ian, Zafirah, Justin, Shu Liang, Yi Shan and many many many more :)

(Don't be sad if your name's not been mentioned here because if you've been nice or sweet to me in one way or another, you'll be included in this exhaustive list. Heehee :D )

2009's been a complete rollercoaster; lots of ups and downs. Life's been hectic this year with school, band, besties, friends and family and stuff. Suffered lots of emotional stress too.

Pressure from studies has always been immense. MJC pushes everyone till we're on the verge of breaking down. Yeap, I'm one of the many poor souls around :P LOL. But yeah, struggled through J1; MYE was horrid, promos was awful, the time spent on studies and stuff was a lot a lot. It was so tiring. okay, it is still tiring because the battle is still ongoing. The giant monster's lurking around eh :S By the way, I'm not done with my holiday assignments :X

Transferred from Oboe to Clarinet; initially very very sad and a little mad :X but yeah, had to put in a lot of effort to learn everything from scratch because clar's just different from oboe in every way (though they look a lot alike :P) Managed to go syf with the band. Had and still having so much fun with section mates. Haha, though band pracs can be tiring, I still love going band :P Hee, all the games, xmas exhange, bbqs, camp, slacking, crapping and stuff :D LOL. and yeap, my crazy seniors were a lot of fun too :) LOL. and competing with jianjun for the one and only toilet at night after band prac's always been hilarious. I always won, though :P

09S411's been awesome and fun. Heee, though there were times the class really made me super duper frustrated, I still wanna say that this is the best class I've ever had my whole life; all the fun, laughter, lame jokes, encouraging each other in dire times, being there for each other, mugging our asses off, many many mini birthday celebrations in the canteen, random camwhoring, assessing each other's OP performance, passing candies in class, everyone ganging up to tease Grace, cycling, baking, making presents, movies, lunches, going to the toilets, buying stuff from the canteen, doing CIP etc etc etc :D

Haha, going crazy over BOF, going through dark periods, irritating my mum and bro every single day, missing my grandfather, kinda addicted to online shopping and browsing, facebook-ing, reading magazines, taking candid (and unglam) photos of people and things, donating loose change to poorthing people, watching movies till I tear, mugging, learning clar, confiding, reading, living in my untidy room, watching my favourite Cardcaptor Sakura on youtube, blasting songs into my ears, texting my friends, buying a lot a lot a lot of things, pissed bro and mum off at times, playing with mum, entertaining people around me, heehee-ing all the time, realising that people around me are awesome souls, running like I never did before, chionging all the way at hockey, being man, breaking my specs, chasing buses, reaching school on the dot, sigining all sorts of things for Grace, passing notes in lectures, failing tests, copying econs homework, playing scales in the canteen during A level exam period, seeing things I didn't like at all (lizards and some people), bitching about bad stuff, busting my allowance, running to tuition, missing my long-time-no-see friends and band mates, wondering about life, being stuck in sticky situations, growing eye bags and dark eye circles etc etc etc

Omg, I'm sure I left out a lot of other things but yeah, it's okay :)Haha, the world's changing every second and so is my train of thought. I'd better stop here and hurry off to do homework and stuff. Wanted to do work at noon but yeah, apparently, I've postponed it due to blogging :P HAHA. Okiedokie, shall stop here for now. In the meanwhile, hope you had fun reading this post. I'd spent some time on it oh! haha! and yeap, Happy New Year in advance :D

Lots of love,
Denise :)
*waves and heehee*

Abstruse

Greetings world,


Healowww~! Denise is going crazyyyyyy; happy one moment and emo the next. Denise thinks that she is half-way through her own madness and she doesn't really know what she's typing here. omgxzxz.


"I hate my life" seems to be mentioned pretty often recently. Urgh, this ain't going anywhere :( K luh, byeeeeeee!


At the very least, Denise knows that there will be people around her who cares for her, sincerely. Thank you very very much, Denise appreciates it. Heh.


And yeap, Happy Birthday, Mabel Tan Zi Yin! :)


By the way, these videos are good, and I mean it. Cross my heart.

Thunder

Greetings world,

Helloooo! Long time no see :X Lol. ohmygod, it's been a million years since I last posted anything :X Hoho, had been lazy and busy. Had lectures almost everyday for the past two weeks. Urgh, kinda hate the super duper long breaks in between lectures though D: School's been mundane? Lol. What else could it be man? Okay, but then it ain't so bad afterall because my friends made time in school more enjoyable :D Hee. That's something to be grateful for eh :) Hehehe.


My class is so fun luh :D Lol. I'm lovin' it! :) Hee! Lol. the version of Jason Mraz's I'm Yours had been given a twist; inspired by a video shown to us during lecture. Trust me, it's damn cool! :) Heee. LOL. Had so much fun during econ lecture on thursday :X Not because the lecture was good or anything :X Haha! :P Oh, we had to learn the mass dance for open house the other day. Haha, I think it's pretty cool :D Hee, but yeah, as usual, I suck at dancing :P HAHA! Let's Get Loud~ ! :)


Man, I almost slept during sectionals on Wed :X HAHA! Dang, hate minor scales :X LOL. Hey, but I can't wait for the bbq on 19th dec! :P Dionne and I have planned to buy marshmallow if it ain't provided :P Lol. Yes, gotta remind her to tell Kit about 19th dec tonight when we go for math tuition :P Hehe. If each section will get a bbq pit [unlikely], I'll prove that I'm man! MAN! HAHA. I can get the fire going alr k! :P Heee!


Muackks, bye holidays!
Okay, this signals the end of slacking D: How sad can jc life be? :/ It just sucks to know that you can't really play and enjoy during the dec vacation simply because of the amount of work that had been thrown at us. Urgh, and yes, we gotta mug and study for tests blah when school resumes next Jan :/ I'm certainly not ready for J2 luh, please :/ Just like that, the year for J1 is over :(


Ohmygod! IDK what else to blog D: Am I losing the ability to blog? Boohoo! D: Okay, here's something random. I woke up at 0745 because the dummy alarm rang as my bro didn't switch it off D: He ain't even at home luh :S It happened the previous week too but he insisted that he'd switched off alr :/ Urgh! and I just tagged on oinky's wall at fb :X Ruyan's gonna kill me, I think :X HAHA! She'll probably skin me alive or something :X HAHAHA! Come on, babe! :X HEHEHE. <3


Oh oh, and pw's over for good. [like, duh~!] OP was quite bad I guess. IDK luh, but the Q&A was horrid :/ I was clearly nervous and I think I blanked out or something. Horrible horrible D: and thanks to someone for being 'so encouraging' :X :X :X where got suan sia :X HAHA. Blehhh! We shall plan for a tap-tap revenge soon, soon! :P Lalala! Heee :P


May be heading back to nv band next week with batchmates :P Hee! Ohman, I miss Mr Tan and Mr Ng D: Kinda miss playing oboe too :X but yeah, gotta brush up on playing clarinet :D Borrowed it home :) Hee, think I'll practise tomorrow. Lalala :X


Alright then, shall stop here. Hee :) Keep tagging aye! Hoho! :)
I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS TOO! WHEEEEEEEE :DDDDDDDDDDD



TAG REPLIES:

Jorene: MARGY! Okay, you're dumb! :X HAHA! jkjk! Know you'll whack me for that :X HAHA. heyyyyy, I miss you girl! how've you been? LOL. I know you miss me like damn a lot! :X HEEE

Yuyin: Hellooooo! HAHA, yeahhh, no more PW! :P Happy birthday in advance, dec babe! :)

Kellynn: OMG, that's so lame kel! :X HAHA, but it's okay because it's you! :P LOL. eh eh eh! cheer up k! and don't think too much ah! Call/text me if you need kk :) Nice nice duh will be here! :D <3

Ruyan: HAHA. OP's overrrr! and you shouldn't be bored because you've got a lot of things to do! :X HAHA! Nope, the cup cakes didn't explode, because I wasn't in any part of the baking process :X LOL. I drew on the tee that we'd for Cherilyn :P It's not that bad k! Show you the photo next time! HAHA. Bet you'll say I'm not bad! :X :X See you on sundayyyyyyyyy, woman! :D <3

Athena: an-yong! LOL. IDK how to spell! :X HAHAHA! Heee! :P lol, thinner in the bottle :X HAHA!

Jonglian: Hey sweetie! LOL! Will you be going back to nv band next week? HAHA! Ask grace along k! :) Hehe! celebrate christmas alrighttt! :) Hoho!

Jian Jun: CJJ! MONSTER! HAHA, okay, I thought you'd dinner last night alr? o.O HAHA! alrighty! woah! it's damn rare that you tagged my blog! :X Haha!

Gabriel: Hi gabriel! ya luh! I wanted to go but couldn't make it D: Did you see their eyes only? :X HAHA! Yay, I've posted a new one alr :) Heeeee, next up, we've got mabel's birthdayyyyyyyyyy! :D Heeeeee

Passerby: Hi! Gee thanks! Will probably try using that the next time I've got photos to upload :) Hehe.